Having an Out of The Box moment

I was out of the box and it showed on the scale.  +3.5 this week.  I've put off posting about it since I'm feeling extremely guilty about it all.  The awesomeness that is my Buttercup fell victim too.  So... I did what I must in these situations:

• All my nutrition minimums were met that day and week.  
• Stopped the damage - Avoiding the "Well there goes this week!" mentality.
• Recorded the calories accurately.
• Reported the matter to my health educator.
• Avoided putting extra physical activity in to "make up" for it.
• Came to class and faced the music.  ( We don't have a musical scale for weigh-in, but someone should really make one. Even if it's just for the pun.)

I am posting now because I am over it.  I have come to grips with this setback and I am ready to move forward.  I probably was ready well before now.  Maybe I did not want to confess to it again.  Or that posting the bad news was unpleasant. I am glad the bandage is cleanly off that wound.

So how did this happen?  I have given it some thought.  Buttercup and I are very close.  We have the ability to support when the other is weak.  We also have the ability to push and nudge and influence each other to misbehavior.  We have the habit of blurting out our impulses when we are weak. "I want..." or, "Ya know what would be really good right now?" This will occasionally strike up a discussion where we have a little food fantasy which always leads up to climactic disappointment. Knowing we are not eating that type of food or should not be spending money on those sorts of foods is one thing.  I guess I am not the first to say that, "Knowing and doing are very different things."

I fixate on some foods for a while.  I obsess over them. Normally I could and would have them.  I really loose sight of the reasons behind it all.  My clear vision on my goals is lost.  These times make me feel like a food addict the most.  The craving of food to the point I do bothers me.  This is not hunger.  This is not need for nutrition.  This is, as we have coined the phrase, "Fatbitchitus!"  I hate that I am that way.  I do not want it any longer.  I need OM NOM NOM BEGONE.  I need to have a OMNOMECTOMY  to cure my Fatbitchitus.

About this website

Hello,

You can call me Surge, a nickname I've chosen. In this first post I'll explain my intentions. Things may change but here's the plan for now.

I am working hard to become a healthy, happy person. I am reaching out to the web a bit to lean on, vent and share with what I see as an active, aware and growing community of like-minded people. These people are on the same path as I am. I'll try to be interesting, informative and as open as I'm comfortable. Right now that means pseudo-anonymous.

On this website I plan to tag my posts with a few tags to help anyone find and follow any particular theme. As I sit here with zero posts made, I have only the plan in my head. So the plan thus far is to use the following tags:

• Checking-IN - Used to post updates about me and my progress toward my goals.
• Checking-OUT - Used to share external websites or things created by others.
• Tool-Box - Talk about skills and utilities for reaching my goals. May also be used to tell you about things you can try.
• Nutrition - A constant need and difficult objective. This factor is ever present when ever you choose to eat.
• Soapbox - Here come the rants. I'm not blind to the world around me, but sometimes I really wish I could be. If you can't stand it - I understand.
• Netcast - This is entirely experimental and loosely planned. No promises just yet.

So that should give you an idea of how to get around.